renovation
It's been some time.
I started renovating my apartment, and it has been stress-inducing. Maybe it's me, wanting to make the perfect choice and avoid mistakes. Maybe it's also the extra challenge of trying to fit everything into a small space while working. Trying to pick the best option, thinking about all the ways it could go wrong, researching all the possibilities, trying to choose the most future-proof option, talking with contractors, double-checking everything they've done, finding mistakes, checking again, picking something new, researching it online, discussing with family, going back on previous decisions, switching options again, and so on. It feels like a spiral.
In some moments, I see the carefree version of myself, thinking it will all be alright. But then that feeling drowns in a sea of worries.
Maybe it will be alright. The fact that I've laid my thoughts here is a good sign.